When you finally leave the narcissist's fantasy world, you can end up feeling angry, you can end up feeling strong annoyance, displeasure or hostility. You may feel as though you want to get revenge on the narcissist, you may feel as though you want to hurt them or harm them in return for an injury or wrong that you had suffered by their hands. You may experience stress, anxiety or depression. This is a result of you being brought into the narcissist's fantasy world. In their fake world or alternate reality, they imagined these impossible or improbable things in their head, these ideas with no basis in reality and then suggested or implied them to you in a way where they were not directly expressed. They indicated the truth or existence
of something by suggestion, rather than by explicit reference. They led you into this illusion where your perception became misinterpreted or distorted.
When you experienced the deceptive appearance or impression which was different from the true one, it was very misleading. They intentionally gave you the wrong idea or impression. They implanted false ideas and beliefs into your mind through use of deception and trickery. They gave you a false and misleading account of their nature and of their basic inherent features, character and qualities. They gave you a mistake impression and tricked you into believing something that was not true for their own personal gain.
Once you've become aware that none of it was real and you were just brought into the narcissist's fantasy world, their fake world or alternate reality, this is when you need to detach. You need to disengage from the narcissist and their environment. You need to recognize and accept that none of it was real or genuine and you need to find your way back to reality. You need to find your way back to having the awareness and understanding of the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them.
The narcissist fed you these false ideas and beliefs and created this alternate reality where things were based on suggestion, estimate or theory, rather than as they actually exist in reality. They may have given you suggestions or ideas, but none of it was real or genuine, none of it was what they were really about. When you begin to realize and accept this, it can be quite overwhelming. You begin to realise that you have been living this lie with the narcissist.
They gave you a mistaken impression and tricked you into believing something that wasn't true for their own personal gain. When you begin to realise and accept this, it can be quite a sudden upsetting or surprising experience. You feel perplexed and confused. It's like you have suddenly woken up from this dream, this fantasy world, this surreal mix of fact and fantasy, where things that were strange or unreal seemed completely normal or usual. Where things that should not make sense do make sense. When you begin to realise and accept that it was all a lie, a fantasy, you wake up from this dream, this fantasy world.
Once you have left the narcissist's fantasy world, it is not the end of the endeavor or struggle, because now you have adopted all of these false ideas and beliefs. Your mind has been conditioned to operate with these distorted meanings and reinterpretations. So now you need to recondition your mind. You need to restore your mind to the way that it used to be before you got pulled into the narcissist's fantasy world. You need to return your mind to it's former condition, quality or working order.
The longer you spent in the narcissist's fantasy world, the worse your mind may have become, because you were in an alternate reality. You were detached from truth, morals and facts. Once you have left the narcissist's fantasy world, you need to reconnect yourself to reality, you need to re-establish a bond of communication and emotion. You need to identify what is real and what is not real. You need to become more concerned with the principles of right and wrong behavior. You need to develop the ability to express these ideas and beliefs with reference to an argument, theory or policy in a logical and consistent way communicate what is right, what is true and what is real in an effective way. Where you can then participate in the action or process of unaltered or unchanged observation, by noticing things, especially significant details, in a way where your perception is unaltered or unchanged. Where you can then receive unaltered or unchanged information or facts. That is reality, that is the state of things as they actually exist, as opposed to an idealistic or notional idea of them. That is reality, rather than something existing as being based on a suggestion, estimate or theory. That is the sum or aggregate of all that is real or existent, as opposed to that which is only imaginary.
When you are dealing with a narcissist, you are not dealing with anything real or genuine. There is no division or identification of what is real or not real, or of what is right or wrong, true or not true. There is no division or clear identification of any of this. It is a surreal mix of fact and fantasy. The ideas or beliefs of the narcissist is presented to you are not truthful or sincere. It is likely to be changed or altered before it is even delivered to you. Everything that you are observing from the narcissist, all of the information that you are receiving has been infected or polluted. When you observe the narcissist and receive this information from them, it is changing or altering your view on reality. When you interact or engage with a narcissist, you are being brought into their fantasy world and it is having a harmful effect on your mind.
You need to self reflect and go within. You need to develop an explanatory analysis of the understanding or interpretations that you have accepted from the narcissist. You have to go within yourself and conduct an investigation, an identification and a detailed examination of the ideas and beliefs that you have accepted from the narcissist. A process of separating these ideas and beliefs into constituent elements. You need to self-reflect and go within
to do this, because when you interact or engage with the narcissist, they are giving their attention and consideration to their fantasy world. An idealistic fantasy which provides them with amusement or enjoyment. That's what they're given their attention and consideration to. When you are interacting or engaging with them, it disconnects you from reality. You become perplexed and confused. Nothing makes any sense, because anything to do with reality, anything to do with truth, morals or facts cannot exist in the narcissist's fantasy world. It has to be changed or altered, it has to be given a distorted meaning or reinterpretation to exist in their world. Anything that you observe from them, any information that you receive will be changed or altered, it will be distorted or reinterpreted when you receive it. You are no longer operating or existing in reality, you are receiving a wrong or misinterpreted perception. You are receiving a deceptive appearance or impression, a false idea or belief which then separates you from reality.
To recondition your mind and recover from this, you need to self-reflect and look within. You need to overcome and take control of the mistakes that you have made, the mistakes that got you to where you are now. There was an act or judgment that was misguided or wrong,
there was something that was misidentified and misinterpreted. There was a sudden malfunction, fault or unexpected setback which caused things to go wrong. It changed or altered your way of thinking, which then led to actions or behaviors which put you into that situation or environment. You need to self reflect and look within to investigate and solve or explain the mental and emotional state that has developed from being around the narcissist.
Observe and develop an awareness of your thoughts and emotions. Play back the situations and inspect, analyze and examine the acts or judgments that were misguided or wrong, the acts or judgments which were misunderstood or misinterpreted. You need to overcome and take control of these acts or judgments to avoid them occurring again. This will then reprogram your mind and make you able to deal successfully with problems or difficulties. Without any acts or judgments that are misguided or wrong, without any misunderstanding or misinterpretation. It will prevent or minimise the risk of any misguided or wrong acts or judgments in the future.
Yes, still so very angry and depressed.